Fallen Thoughts

:: 10.23.2001 ::

I think I'm due up for a nice long rant.

I have a tight grasp on the notion that I'm an insomniac. maybe not even an insomniac, just a night person. I damn sure love sleeping, it's just the times that I choose to do so which throw a wrench in the gears of normalcy. a direct result of this habit is my attendance, or lack thereof, to a Tues. & Thur. PE class. being the schmuck that I can be, I just stopped going. I haven't been to the class in a good 2 weeks now, and that's just lame. it would have been so damn easy to just drop it, but my constantly growing slack resulted in my not knowing the final drop day had occured 3 days before I had the realization that I needed to do so. I'm doing great in all my other classes, and now I'm going to let a fuckin' PE class of all things bring me down. dammit.

in proper form, it's 5 am now and here I sit babbling. I've been going off on these deep tangents in my mind lately, just thinking about life and purpose and all that good stuff. read Kerouac's 'The Dharma Bums' last week, which didn't help said situation. not that it's a bad thing to think about, just that there's no real answer to come to. the whole Zen Lunatic way of life just appealed so much to me. it seems there are so few people these days, especially in our 'go, go, go!' society, that actually take time to enjoy life... to stop and smell the roses. life has become such an expected structure - go to school, go to college, get a job, get married, have kids, get old, die. why does the norm have to be so boring? work your entire life so you can reap the benefits when you're too damn old to get out and do so? fuck that. carpe diem. s'what I say...

:: posted by Michael at 5:27 AM [+] ::

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